so hi all it’s been a long time but I finally was able to reset my password on here and wanted to write again.
The last year or two has been the most difficult and stressful yet we have moved lots first selflessly to help my Mother in law then after she passed away we had to move from York we’ve had another baby learnt a lot and are full circle heading back to before it all went wrong, the house, area and schools we were at before we changed our life to help our lovely mum (in law,grandma) we never could have envisioned what was yet to come then, how quickly things can change how your life visions for the future and your plans can be completely turned upside down in an instant ,We never could have known , we just did what we thought was right and then we thought that starting again and changing and moving away was the right thing to do but all it did was disappointingly let us down in so very many ways and I am disheartened and sad that it wasn’t the right decision for us so a lot of moving again and a lot of loss and heartache, and we are off to start a new chapter yet again, this chapter title is entitled “happiness” though I am yet to fill it with content I hope it is a very very very long one filled with love laughter and adventure and memory making for my husband and now four children and I for they mean the world to me and I don’t want to disappoint I don’t want to struggle and have loss and stress and heartache anymore and I want us to live each day to the full to make lots of happy memories to fulfill dreams and create adventures, sometimes we all get lost a little on the way we get sidetracked we turn the wrong way at a crossroads but with that we learn and we grow and we become who we were meant to be all along and we get where we were meant to get to eventually just sometimes it takes some of us a little longer to find the direction and to follow the map the right way without turning it upside down a little bit first and, one day in many years to come we will look back at it all and we will understand it all as god has a plan for me and my family and I now know more than ever to trust it and not worry and to be completely who I am meant to be xxxxxx